These were the sessions where our faculty, Nicolas would guide us into tis sort of meditation (Dont feel I am capable of 'mediation' as yet there I call it the drum sessions) using a drum. We have had 3 sessions so far and they have all been intense in their own ways.
The first session we were asked to follow the drum beat and go into a tunnel and visualize our ancestors once the beat shifted we were asked to make our return journey, and if we were handed anything we were asked not to accept it. We had been asked to observe our breathing and concentrate for every session so it was the same procedure in the beginning.
Once the drum beat started I somehow imagined a tunnel, there were varying tunnels. It was a lil strange imagining my ancestors, all I had were random pictures that have been hanging around the house. So I imagined these photos with bodies. The tunnels kept changing and I was getting lost with the drumbeat.
When the drumbeat changed was when i realized that I couldn't feel m body anymore. It had gotten really heavy and I could not imagine moving any part of my body. I started freaking out and was still concentrating on the drum beat. Till the beat ended I was focusing on both my body and the beat.
When the beat ended and we were asked to get up at our own pace.
I tried lifting my head but I just could not manage it. I did lift it up but my head fell back and I hit myself. I then had to breathe gain complete control of myself before I got out of this state.
It was almost like I was outside my body. I was very conscious of myself and not my body during the second beat. Like there were two aspects to me.
It was an intense experience.
The next drum session we had to go down a hole and find our animal power. Because we were lying down I found it a little hard to imagine a hole in the ground but I managed to and I was going down various holes and tunnels and at one point I entered this cave of sorts, every time I let go and listened to the drums while seeing things in my head various images would cross my mind. So when I entered the cave there was a book on a chair and a light. As I walked closer to it I realized it was a ball of light. So I picked it up and was playing with it. Prodding it and bouncing it around, the drum beat changed and I continued walking on instead of coming back, at some point I could make out there was something else walking ahead of me. Either a bear or a rabbit. Every time I tried concentrating on it, it disintegrated.
This time my physical reaction was I could feel my right hand and feet getting numb, my middle finger felt like it was floating and my mouth was opening. But I am pretty sure my hand was on the ground and my mouth was shut. When I woke up I stil felt like my finger was acting strange it just did not feel like mine.
The very last time we had the drum session I was a little lost as we were not given any directions. I floated in and out of concentrating on the drums. There were a few images that finally crossed my mind that I drew to see if it led to anything.
One thing I need to make sure before the next session is figure out what my 'intention' is. It feels like its going to be an extremely tough task though.
The first session we were asked to follow the drum beat and go into a tunnel and visualize our ancestors once the beat shifted we were asked to make our return journey, and if we were handed anything we were asked not to accept it. We had been asked to observe our breathing and concentrate for every session so it was the same procedure in the beginning.
Once the drum beat started I somehow imagined a tunnel, there were varying tunnels. It was a lil strange imagining my ancestors, all I had were random pictures that have been hanging around the house. So I imagined these photos with bodies. The tunnels kept changing and I was getting lost with the drumbeat.
When the drumbeat changed was when i realized that I couldn't feel m body anymore. It had gotten really heavy and I could not imagine moving any part of my body. I started freaking out and was still concentrating on the drum beat. Till the beat ended I was focusing on both my body and the beat.
When the beat ended and we were asked to get up at our own pace.
I tried lifting my head but I just could not manage it. I did lift it up but my head fell back and I hit myself. I then had to breathe gain complete control of myself before I got out of this state.
It was almost like I was outside my body. I was very conscious of myself and not my body during the second beat. Like there were two aspects to me.
It was an intense experience.
The next drum session we had to go down a hole and find our animal power. Because we were lying down I found it a little hard to imagine a hole in the ground but I managed to and I was going down various holes and tunnels and at one point I entered this cave of sorts, every time I let go and listened to the drums while seeing things in my head various images would cross my mind. So when I entered the cave there was a book on a chair and a light. As I walked closer to it I realized it was a ball of light. So I picked it up and was playing with it. Prodding it and bouncing it around, the drum beat changed and I continued walking on instead of coming back, at some point I could make out there was something else walking ahead of me. Either a bear or a rabbit. Every time I tried concentrating on it, it disintegrated.
This time my physical reaction was I could feel my right hand and feet getting numb, my middle finger felt like it was floating and my mouth was opening. But I am pretty sure my hand was on the ground and my mouth was shut. When I woke up I stil felt like my finger was acting strange it just did not feel like mine.
The very last time we had the drum session I was a little lost as we were not given any directions. I floated in and out of concentrating on the drums. There were a few images that finally crossed my mind that I drew to see if it led to anything.
One thing I need to make sure before the next session is figure out what my 'intention' is. It feels like its going to be an extremely tough task though.
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